Ok .. sooooo who has time to begin blogging before they go to work ???
Clearly I do …
And the above picture encapsulates how I attempt to begin my day (not always successfully, by the way) …
Bible. . Notepad. . Highlighter . .
And a heart bursting at the seams with a complex mixture of love / loss / happy /sad /need /desire … etc ..
There is so much of my life that I love and appreciate ..
And other things which cause me pain and sadness.
Mornings (especially because I am Not a morning person) are usually a slow start.
I set my alarm for 2 hours before I need to leave home .. I bound (not really).. more accurately is *stumble .. from bed .. Aim for the kitchen and switch on the coffee machine ..
Once that sweet Cappacino foam, covered in chocolate, hits my lips .. there begins my ability to think about my day.
The dogs sleep blissfully at my feet… (Hoping that it’s my day off and then they get to stay inside).
Today though . . No chance . .
I am thankful for the sunshine and blue sky outside..
My thoughts turn to the things on my mind and heart. .
Today it is my family.
The complexity of relationships. .
Unique personalities .. The way we are shaped by who we are and also by the environment in which we were raised.
My thoughts turn to prayer.
I was especially touched recently by the movie ‘War Room’.
It is about relationships and prayer. Both are things very close to my heart ..
Prayer changes us .. prayer – in line with God’s spirit – makes us more like Him .. keeps us honest, accountable .. allows us to love others in ways that don’t just come naturally.
We become more sacrificial. .less selfish. . God uses us in ways that we don’t expect and couldn’t imagine. . I love it when that happens. . You just know that it’s Him ..
I learn to trust more and fear less ..
This past year has had lots of challenges for me personally.
I have a precious friend who has a difficult health challenge … yet being the amazing and Godly example she has always been .. continues to love God and extend grace to those around her. Still managing to smile and be an encouragement 🙂
I endured a job situation which was abusive and drove me to a state of mind that I never thought possible from a ‘job’ ..
There are people close to me with health challenges ..
Physical .. emotional .. battles to be fought and God willing, to be won ..
And yet somehow . . Not by anything I can ‘conjure up’ .. but by knowing the one who created me .. I don’t just ‘survive’ ..
I live each day ..
That God has a plan ..
And a purpose .. for me ..
Not just me .. But you . .
For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope.  In those days when you pray, I will listen.  If you look for me wholeheartedly, you will find me.
Jeremiah 29 : 11-13 NLT