A little something about me …

I am NOT a Procrastinator .. not really a super spontaneous personality either. I lie somewhere in between.

2017-06-20 06.41.53AWWWW … LOOK at the cute puppy …

What I do know about me, is that I AM A TIME WASTER …

Social Media really gets me in, like the proverbial Bunny in the headlights.

It’s like this pretty little sparkle of light … I am drawn in, like a moth to a flame.

ME :

Ohhhhh … A yummy recipe, I will save that for later. 

Oh YAYYY .. Mary Jane is on Holidays .. I would soooo love to go there !!!

The News .. Now that IS important !

Ohhh … Look , It’s the verse for today …

A Cute puppy … awwwww .. (now that is my weakness) *see above, this is one of my 3 dogs – just call him ‘Vinnie Monster’   .. for reasons which should be pretty clear from this photo.

Oh look … isn’t little Johnny sooo cute , 6 months old today – Oh how time flies !

And .. Before I know it – an hour has slipped by …

I must get up and do something (so much to cram –  in on my day off) ..

Then – I do some washing, clean the kitchen, change the sheets and towels and somehow end back up on my phone or the laptop. Facebook, Instagram. Check some emails.

This is the ridiculous cycle that I ALLOW myself to be consumed with.

TIME WASTING

I know the better option is to spend time with God, yet – Why is there something within me that chooses to ignore that ?

If I delve a little deeper into my thought processes, sometimes I avoid time in prayer, because I am a little scared of what God might reveal.

Or possibly that I don’t want to have to think about some change I know that I need to make. Or that I feel helpless in not being able to ‘FIX’ things that I think need to be fixed, and sitting quietly before God,  is the time when tears of pain or sadness – that I am subconsciously trying to push down – will inevitably bubble to the surface.

And even as I articulate these feelings and thoughts now – My head knows what is best – but my heart and emotions long for Rainbows, Lollipops and Unicorns to appear .. Oh yes – I know that I am being ridiculous – but I think that you may understand what I mean ..

My rainbow may be ‘ Happily Ever After’, resolved relationships, Healing – all good and noble things – but God isn’t in the habit of giving us everything that we long for (for very good reason) ..  *picture super – spoiled- tantrum – throwing –  brats,  across the world … Pleading for their own way and hissy-fitting when they don’t get it.

I may not ‘hissy-fit’ –  but I do feel disappointed when my life doesn’t go to the plan that I have in my head.

So my favourite verse is my ‘go – to’ this week – I pray that it will help you and I to rely on God more, and ourselves less.

PROVERBS 3 : 5-8 NIV

Trust in the Lord with all your heart
    and lean not on your own understanding;


in all your ways submit to him,


    and he will make your paths straight.[a]

Do not be wise in your own eyes;
    fear the Lord and shun evil.
This will bring health to your body
    and nourishment to your bones.

AMEN

 

 

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